Was I out of my head? was I out of my mind? How could I have ever been so blind? I was waiting for an indication It was hard to find Dont matter what I say only what I do I never mean to do bad things to you So quiet but I finally woke up If youre sad then its time you spoke up too
-out of my head; fastball-
as a ussual.. im just an evil in your eyes. i, who didnt care about others. yes. i accepted. even there’s always an argument about that. im not a natural born evil.
but, ok. i accepted. i’ll change for my self.
and today, such a perfect gloomy day for my heart, and then fitrie and sali talks to me. my two married friend, said the same point. yep. i understand and agree. and also thank for all of u. friends which suddenly comes up even we dont see each other for a long time, even they dont know about my problem at all. they just remind me that we always being loved. and also all of my best friend. -getting tired with all my up and down story-. thanks for remind me to be slowly, dont take it seriously. now, slow down Ca. yup. im on that phase.
well.. we know it never easy, but i feel i do fine. and maybe better tomorrow. i wont push him anymore. i wont ask.. or do..or say anything.
btw, sering ngalamin gak.. pas fase patah hati saat sebuah hubungan usai, lalu semua alam raya seolah mendukung dengan langit yang menangis -ujan deres ataupun rinai 
-, lalu kalian harus buru-buru masuk taksi dan entah kenapa si supir nyetel lagu yang kemudian bikin inget momen pas masih bareng. atau kalaupun gak naik taksi, jadi harus naik bis kota dan ada pengamen yang nyanyiin lagu “saat masih bersama” yang tiba tiba bisa membuatmu berkaca kaca dan pengen ngasih duit seribu? . hehehe… i was there.
-nih postingan menye menye banget sih??? -
jadi inget satu kalimat di alchemist-nya coelho. “ketika kamu menginginkan sesuatu, maka seluruh alam raya bekerja sama untuk mewujudkannya…”
kalo kamu lagi pengen menye-menye, mellow, live in numbness, ato apapun, sepertinya seluruh alam raya juga bahu-membahu untuk mewujudkannya…
ica, bangun…
Comment by jeppe — October 31, 2007 @ 1:43 pm